It is July 4 the day of independence for the US. As fireworks go off around me I've been trying to keep busy but sometimes I feel like a shark when I do. Why you might ask, well because sometimes I feel like if I stop moving I would stop breathing just like them....werid huh. Well when I think of the future or the past I get nervious so nervious the thought of either ...just scares me. I'll be the big 21 in a couple of weeks and I still feel like an idiot child that can't do anything with out mama o papa. None of my mistakes have been major and I have had a pretty good life so I feel bad about complaining but it feels like I can't do anything right....ya I know what you are saying...boo woo quit bitching.....and you won't be right.....I guess. just felt like venting....now I feel better...lol....not really but anyway I finally will be able to drink...and own a handgun legally.....wait... I can have both at the same time?...thats a recipe for disaster....lol......perhaps the lawmakers should have to rethink that one......in the fall i go back to the university and I feel like I can keep up.......well if I got the classes I needed i would not be so nervious....stupid ecology...anyways anyone who reads this send me a comment let me know how you are doing....chaplin hernandez sighing out